And that was hard for me. I like goals to be time-bound. I like to set an end date right up front and plan backwards from there. I like to measure my progress along the way and make sure I’m on track.
But as I’ve worked on this project, I realized quite concretely that a three-year deadline was not only an insane pace for the project, but it kind of misses the larger point: if the BSP’s ultimate objective is to offer a platform for ‘lifelong learning,” then why race towards its end?
A-ha moments like these are, of course, come as a great relief to one’s psyche. We remember that, in large measure, we have a lot of say in how we construct our lives. And if we’ve given ourselves a challenge that feels overwhelming, we’re completely within our rights to modify that challenge. For me, I want to feel a little uncomfortable (cause that’s how learning happens), but at this point in life, I don’t want to feel overwhelmed by self-imposed deadlines and constructs.
So what’s the past year been like? Packed, actually.
My job of many years wound down, and I transitioned to a new job. A lot–a LOT–of time, energy, and love went into the release of a new CD. I went to my 30th college reunion, and we all spoke of a good friend whose absence was felt; we learned months later that she had died.
My back gets stiff as hell now if I don’t do a little yoga in the mornings. Other than seasonal allergies and one cold, I’ve been otherwise healthy. But several people I love and people close to me, have struggled with health issues, and I’ve found myself thinking a lot about the speed with which our lives pass and what a bummer aging can be.
And the BSP marched forth, but not with the same sense of urgency as the first year. It was a lot more fun to work on this way.
I imagine the coming year will bring more of the same and a whole lot of unknowns.
A friend posted this on Facebook today, and I’m thinking this is my motto for the next year:
Happy Birthday, BSP! Here’s to the next year, your “terrible twos,” and whatever incremental learning you bring.